Sunday, October 3, 2010

Learn to let go


A realistic life indeed realistic! Keep on telling myself not to drop tear or cry though 三姑 just passed away peacefully during her sleep. Eventually I decided to jot down some words to remember during my rare insomnia.

Deep inside, I refused to accept this occurred unexpectedly and too sudden. My emotional barrier finally collapsed completely.

It was joyful during the Genting trip together and celebrate family gathering. The most painful moment when I edited the photos of 三姑 and I couldn't say directly how much I'm going to miss her. I'm weak! Reminded wife not to cry while on the way to Alor Setar to attend 三姑 funeral ceremony. Saw 三姑 in her coffin, I was the first one broken into tears uncontrollably.

Final night of funeral ceremony, felt heavy heart to say goodbye to 三姑. During driving, I nonstop talking to brother-in-law to avoid silence dragging me into possible chance to drop tear. Reached home safely. Confirmed my kids slept soundly, I stared on the ceiling with total emptiness even room was completely dark. In order to make myself sleep - I mumbled - time to learn to let go.

Rest In Peace, 三姑...


KM's Corner 刻骨铭心 said...

CN, sorry for the sad news. May wish your 三姑RIP.Send my deepest condolence to your family members.

Hong CN said...

bro, it's a process. I'm learning hard to accept though very heavy to let go. I'm going miss her indeed.

KM's Corner 刻骨铭心 said...

CN, that's human nature. We are not "cool blood" animal.