Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Let go

Ying

Ying is very sticky to me physically. My pregnant wife unable to carry her, Ying turns her focus on me whenever I'm at home or any sight she can see me. I particularly enjoy to carry this "koala bear" around. She is sweet and adorable. The moment she hugs me, I feel contented and committed.

When I brought her to nursery school, her eyes tell me deeply, she unable to let go me to school. Once in a while, she hugged me hard and refused to let go while I was late to office. Mostly me and wife promised to play with her after school or going for shopping, then she is ok to let go. Crying loud is unavoidable, expected. Recently, she is improving. She can accept to let go but her tears uncontrollably drop. My heart still feeling stabbed whenever see her cry or drop tears like this.

I told my wife - this little girl unable to let us go then I grinned. I can't imagine probably after 20 years, maybe the situation change oppositely. Probably it is ME to drop tear and refuse to let her go. I keep on laughing to myself, mostly the day will come :-) My wife teased me since then.

I started to admit - I'm just an ordinary dad and not smart totally.

8 comments:

KM's Corner 刻骨铭心 said...

Agreed with you and have the same feelings. After 20-30 years, kids will leave us and have their own life. Don't you feel that it is happening to ourselve now? We are leaving our parent and have our own family... and will back to home to visit them once in a while? This is so called life cycle. Just not to forget their loves and try to go back more often ... :)

Hong CN said...

Yes exactly like the similar picture that I'm having it now. It is indeed life cycle that probably my parents also learning how to let go at the same time. Sometimes, I forward the time in my head to foresee probably after another 30 or 40 years, I will face the same like my parents now. This is the thing that reminds me to communicate with parents while I choose to. Take good care :-)

Anonymous said...

You parents must be strong in front of your children, unveil your emotional feeling and pretended to be very solid/firm and confidence to what thier are pursuing on. Please, let go. Let go and give chances for them to face this challenging world. Well equipped them and train them. Parents know when to let go and when to hold back. sensations among us are the same. We love our children. Our children love us too. Hand on hand, side by side built a happiness family. cheer up!

Hong CN said...

Thanks :-) I choose NOT to let myself fail to take care of my children. Exploring the detailed of each learning session. I can't conclude I'm smart but I will learn how to let go through time. Eventually the children are individual themselves, not me nor my wife. This takes little while for both of us to adjust and adapt through time. :-)

KM's Corner 刻骨铭心 said...

Ying is really looks like her mother now..(as she grow). From the picture, feel that she is mini SP. :)

Hong CN said...

KM - I agree with you :-) When she smiles or grins, she looks exactly like me - macam acuan :-)

KM's Corner 刻骨铭心 said...

CN.."she looks exactly like me - macam acuan :-)".. is it typo? Suppose exactly like SP.. rite? hehe!

Hong CN said...

hahaha... I mean when she grins, she looks like me also :-) Her eyes exactly like SP :-)

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